Depression and Writing

I posted this about a week ago on Facebook, and I’m in a slightly better place emotionally (just slightly, not much). But I decided to post it here, too, because a friend suggested that it might encourage someone else who is feeling the same way. So, if you, like me, have MDD (major depressive disorder) or any other form of depression, you’re not alone. ❤️ We’re going to get through this. We’re going to find our healing. We just have to keep fighting. ❤️

Here’s the original post:

I know I’ve probably mentioned this plenty of times before, but I love quotes. I have notebooks full of my favorite quotes everywhere. Well, I have this one in almost every writing notebook I own because it’s one of my absolute favorites. And I like to look at it, especially when I’m hurting.

You guys know I don’t like to talk about this. It usually takes me until after I’m starting to come out of it to find courage to tell anyone. But I’ve been fighting through a particularly rough patch of depression for the last month or so. And when I say “particularly rough,” I don’t say that lightly. Even after so many years, there’s still so much shame around mental illness and suicidal thoughts that I can’t bring myself to reach out to people, even when I know I should. My books are helping me work through that shame—but still, it’s a lot easier to say that a character is feeling a certain way than to admit that you are.

There were a couple of weeks this month when I thought I was coming out of it, but every time, I’d just wind up plummeting back to where I was before. I’ve been feeling a little better today, and I’ve been writing surprisingly well today. (And good writing days have been very hard to come by lately.) So, I’m really hoping this isn’t another one of those false alarms—where I’m just going to fall into that dark place again before the end of the night. But for now, I’m just going to keep hoping really hard and keep writing. And wait for the writing to heal me, like it always does. ❤️

And just in case you can’t read my handwriting, here’s the quote:

“I think writing really helps you heal yourself. I think, if you write long enough, you will be a healthy person. That is, if you write what you need to write, as opposed to what will make money, or what will make fame.” – Alice Walker (author of The Color Purple)

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THE ASSASSINS OF LIGHT Book Trailer

I made a small edit to the book trailer. 😊

(Spoiler: I changed “Coming Soon” to “Available Now.” 😁)

And here’s the link, if you need it:

https://amzn.to/2DRPJ0A

Happy Rambling

My author’s copy of The Assassins of Light came in this week, and I’m so giddy because… 1) it’s so pretty!!! 😍 And 2) three books later, this feeling still hasn’t gotten old—that magical feeling of holding my work in my hands, of touching the solid form of the story that was once stuck in my head, of holding in my hands the story and characters that I love with all of my heart. ❤️❤️❤️ I’ve had a lot of rough days lately, so I’m very grateful for such a genuine burst of happiness this week. 😊❤️ Anyway, I’ll quit my happy rambling so you can look at the pretty book!!! 😍😍😍

THE ASSASSINS OF LIGHT is available!

Both versions are finally up on Amazon!!! (I could cry with relief! ❤️)

Guys, I really hope you enjoy this book! ❤️ I poured everything into it and more. ❤️ This one has a tiny bit less action than usual, but so much more emotion, romance, friendship, and mystery. It’s also a lot…(ahem) steamier than usual, so…for those of you who have been waiting for that, this is the one. 😁 You can also expect to see a lot more puzzle pieces of the mystery surrounding Rose’s power. In the (incredibly vague) words of Erastos, “answers are coming.” 😊 Anyway, here it is, and I really, really hope you like it! ❤️❤️❤️

They haven’t put them together in one link yet, so here’s the separate links:

Kindle: http://a.co/aK7HCz5

Paperback: http://a.co/g75IA1X

The Assassins of Light Paperback Version

The paperback version of The Assassins of Light is available on Amazon. Yay! 😊❤️

I contacted Amazon about the Kindle version of the book (since it should’ve been up three days ago), and they said that it was just a technical issue on their end, and they’ll have it fixed within the next 24 hours. So, sometime tonight, hopefully? I’ll post it as soon as it’s up. 😊 Until then, here’s the link for all of my paperback-lovers! ❤️❤️❤️

Amazon Link : http://a.co/9VwYTqL

Keep an eye on my website and Facebook for the post with the link to both versions! 😊

Update

If you’re friends with me on Facebook, you probably already know what’s going on, but just in case you’re not…

My mom was put into the ICU on Tuesday, when THE ASSASSINS OF LIGHT was supposed to be released, and she’s been in the ICU, on life support, since then. (Until today! She’s off life support, as of today! ❤️❤️❤️ And if she keeps doing well, she may be out of ICU and put into a room soon! Fingers crossed! ❤️) But because of all of this, I was never able to finalize everything for the book. I’ll be at the hospital all day today, but I’m going to try to finalize everything tonight, after the last visitation time. So, keep an eye on Facebook or my website tonight and tomorrow because I’ll post the link as soon as they have the book up. ❤️ Thank you so much for your support! I love and appreciate you all so much! ❤️❤️❤️ And I really, really hope you enjoy the book! ❤️❤️❤️

Release Date for THE ASSASSINS OF LIGHT

Official Release Date Announcement:

I’m expecting The Assassins of Light (Book Three of the Creatures of Darkness series) to be released on March 6th! Which is only one week away!!! (Totally panicking over here.) We’re so close, guys!!! ❤️

I really had my heart set on a February release date, but then, the flu came along and messed everything up. But hopefully, now that I’m over the flu and I’ve solved my keyboard problem (this has been a disastrous month), I’ll be back on track. Anyway, I’m really excited, and I hope you guys are, too! ❤️❤️❤️ (I’m also terrified out of my mind, but hopefully, you guys are not feeling that. 😂)

SO, SO CLOSE!!!❤️

Polls and Other Fun Stuff

As we get closer and closer to the release of The Assassins of Light, I’m trying to do some fun, “authorly” stuff that lets me interact more with you. ❤️ I’ll probably do a lot of it on Facebook, since that’s where I have the most interaction, so if you’re not already friends with me on Facebook, feel free to send me a request. 😊 One of the things I’ve been doing recently is weekly polls Facebook for anyone reading the Creatures of Darkness series. I forgot to announce them here (because I’m ridiculously forgetful), but if you want to participate, just keep an eye out on my Facebook page. 😊 I also included the links below. ❤️

I’m really enjoying getting to know my readers better, and I hope you all know how much I appreciate you. ❤️❤️❤️

I will also be posting an official release date announcement later today, so keep an eye out for that, too. 😊

You can use the links below to vote in the polls we’ve done so far, if you haven’t already voted. 😊

Favorite Character Poll: https://www.facebook.com/britneymjackson/posts/10154896894251266

Favorite Villain Poll: https://www.facebook.com/britneymjackson/posts/10154930033866266

Favorite Love Interest Poll: https://www.facebook.com/britneymjackson/posts/10154945881656266

Hope for a New Year

I’m spending New Year’s Day doing what I do every other day of the year, which is writing and consuming too much coffee (and mom-ing, obviously). I don’t usually do the resolutions-thing because I always assume I’ll fail, anyway, but I do have a couple of goals for 2018…

1) Publish two books this year.

With two kids and so much work outside of writing, it takes me forever to finish a book. So, up until now, I’ve only ever been able to publish one book a year, but…considering how much I’ve already finished in The Assassins of Light and The Reign of Darkness—the final book of the Creatures of Darkness series (yes, I’ve already started it)—if everything goes smoothly, I should finish both of those in 2018. (I’ve also gotten quite a bit done on my side-project The Wildness Within. So, who knows? Maybe I’ll finish three books this year. 😳 …That’s obviously the coffee talking.) I’m really close to the end of first draft of The Assassins of Light, though. So, you can expect a release date announcement very soon. 😊

2) And…most importantly…make 2018 better than 2017.

2017 was a rough year for a lot of us, I think. It was a year that showed us the worst in people. Many of us experienced some of our worst periods of depression or struggled more with mental illness than ever before, but I believe we came out of it braver and stronger. 2017 reminded us how important it is to stand up for each other and fight for each other. It was a year that made us write and create harder and deeper than ever before. There was no time for apathy, no time for complacency. We either took a stand against evil, or we stood with it. So, even though 2017 broke me at times, I have a renewed hope for 2018. Because we’re not invisible anymore. We’re here. We’re together. And we’re going to fight for each other. ❤️

Happy New Year! I hope we all have a happy and wondrously creative year! ❤️

…Or Not 😂

I know I said that the last teaser was the last teaser, but…

Total accident, I swear. 😁

Excerpt:

Isaac’s lip curled in disgust. “You know exactly why I don’t like him.”

Aaron exhaled slowly. “Yes,” he began calmly, “but I refuse to acknowledge that as an actual reason…since it’s not!” He’d yelled that last word so suddenly that Isaac immediately took a step back, startled. Aaron took a deep breath and continued in a calmer tone, “I am way too old and way too homicidal to deal with your ignorance, so for your own sake, stop annoying me.”

Rose frowned worriedly. “He’s going to kill him by the end of the week, isn’t he?”

“I really hope so,” Kara muttered. When she noticed the look that Rose was giving her, she shrugged. “What?”

from my upcoming book, The Assassins of Light,

Book Three of the Creatures of Darkness series.

© Britney Jackson

Last Teaser (Possibly)

This will PROBABLY be the last new teaser I post before the book’s release, but don’t hold me to that. I tend to go a little wild with them after a good writing day. 😂

(from my upcoming book, The Assassins of Light, Book Three of the Creatures of Darkness series)

Plotters, Pantsers, and…Me

Everyone says that there are two kinds of writers, right? Plotters and pantsers. Plotters are the ones that plan and outline everything before they start, and pantsers are the ones that write “by the seat of their pants.” Well, I’m basically a pantser who tries to be a plotter. I try (try being the key word) to be so organized when I write. I’ve known the overarching plot for this series since before I started the very first version of The Stone of the Eklektos, five years ago. I knew, even then, that there would be at least four books because there are four major book-long ”things” (I’m trying not to give anything away) that have to happen before the “thing” at the end of the series. (I’m starting to feel like Erastos with all of this vagueness.) But…every time I try to be “good,” and make all of my outlines beforehand, my characters just like, “Hahahahaha, you can’t make us,” and go completely off course for the majority of the book. And let me just tell you: those months without a plan are terrifying. Fun. But terrifying. But then, the coolest thing happens. You reach this one point in the book, and everything just clicks into place. And suddenly, there’s structure. A new structure—one you didn’t plan—and it’s better than the one you did plan. And it’s so cool. I just reached that point with this book, so I’m pretty giddy about it right now (which is a wonderful release from the lowness that I’ve been feeling for weeks now). I wish I could be a well-behaved plotter and be organized throughout the entire process, but at the same time, this is pretty freaking cool. ❤️